2009 was a big Flop !

Though I had some bright moments in this short-short-short year, its a big flop year for me. I had set so many milestones and I never crossed one.

I start something, I manage to put some effort in it, something happens in the middle and I lose that enthusiasm and in the end, I feel like, thats it. END OF STORY.

Only thing which I completed this year, was GRE examination. I had prepared well and was ready to score well. The moment I entered the examination hall, I was asked to verify my signature in my passport, which I struggled. Finally, I had to sign,.. sign... 18 times to get the perfect signature which lied between the card and the laminated layer. I didn't know that little change that had happened in gap of 4yrs to my signature would be a headache. It was not my day, I got totally nervous, little tensed, irritated due to that signature session which had cost me a great deal - a downfall in my score.


I had built a good reputation at the office. But, that didn't score well too. People tell me that, I am doing really great and will be given an opportunity when it arrives. But, you know what, it arrives, people who have no idea of the work gets invited, they get those opportunity and I will be asked to teach them, train them, prepare to work. Its really terrible when you got to teach/train the person who stole the opportunity. Of course, I can chuck them and leave to another place/project. But, I have got this little fear that, as soon as, I leave, people might say "Oh ! poor ram, you could have got that, had you stayed ". But not anymore, I dont give a damn about them next time. No more fears and there was too much of loyalty shown.

Next time, only these few words, I gotto use "Is it a Yes or No ?"

I realised most of this year. Though, it was terrible. I had learnt a great deal. Every time, I learn somethings hard way, esp. relationships. Hope 2010 gives me a following ones.

A source of Inspiration
A bag of confidence,
A ray of hope !